This is not the worst thing in the world. Maybe it's not even worth bitching about. But it drives me a little crazy, and I just need to rant a little.
Why, why, why can't Sir return e-mail messages? Consistently return text messages? It's not that hard. It just isn't.
~~~ I started this post a few days ago - I should have just gone ahead and posted then, when I had so little to complain about. LOL.
Instead, here I am, wondering wtf I'm doing in this relationship anyhow. He's obviously not really interested in me. He's not really into touching me. He's not into spanking. Or rules or lots of control. He doesn't want to meet my family, even though we're clearly dating, you know, not a mostly phone or online relationship, and have been for a while. And he thinks that making sure I have an orgasm is an obligation rather than something He wants to do. (Yes, he said the obligation part, the rest of it is me.)
No, we haven't argued. As far as I'm concerned there's no point in arguing. Our relationship is still so new that I'm just gathering information about who he is.
And maybe I'm just viewing things through the lens of someone who was on orgasm restriction, and anticipating that ending about 12 hours ago, but here I am still. Tense. Despite having spent an hour in really sensual play that led to him having what he described as an amazingly intense orgasm.
I thought lots of orgasms was the perk of being submissive. Or at least one orgasm. It is not that hard to make me cum.
He promises to take care of me today. That's nice. I predict he'll pull out a tool - probably the Hitachi - and expect to spend a couple of minutes holding it between my legs. I think that's going to make me feel sad.
Damn it. There are lots of things I like about this man. But this is bull - this is not going to work for me.
I guess I need to be talking to him rather than ranting here. But (laughing) this is so much easier.
Words of advice welcome...
Hello HS --
ReplyDeleteI think some times we forget that TTWD is still the same as dating -- it's the getting to know you phase
you do need to figure out if these are red flags for you or not....trust me
I'm the queen of ignoring red flags and paying in the end.
talk to him -- when you are comfortable....but these things may just be how he is.
sfp
Hi, Sfp - Thanks for the wise words! I know you're right - and I actually did talk to him, and I think I may have been over-reacting just a wee bit. But you know, like you (like all of us) I've ignored some red flags and regretted it before, so I may be a little over-reactive. And that's ok - I get to be however I am. :)
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